Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I know people are well-meaning, but seriously, is this how they want the conversation to go?

"How are you doing, Anna?"

"How do you think I'm doing? I feel like shit. I feel devastated. I have no idea how to even start to feel OK again. Or trust. It was hard enough to do the first time, but this, now, after all of that, is infinitely worse. I can't even begin to find the words to adequately describe how I'm 'doing'."

But I don't say that, because the people that ask me that question really do mean well.

So I shrug, and say "I'll be fine."

Inside I'm alternating between screaming and crying.